Perfect Timing

I know I’m not really consistent on here but I’m really trying. I write a lot because I don’t like saying certain things out loud. Believe it or not, even when I reread my posts online before publishing, I cringe. The Studio By Leyla may seem very small but it is so close to my heart. Being able to share my thoughts with you and have you relate to my posts and share your stories has been amazing. I am so grateful to you all. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I have big plans for my blog and the vision for it, can’t wait to share them with you all when the time is right.

I want this to be a community. I want us to stay connected. We’re all alone in this together.

I know some of you write; if you guys want to share it with me, I’d be honored to read your work.

It was really hard for me to open up and share this journey with y’all. Especially because I am still going through it all and haven’t figured everything out. I feel like people who write about self development have already achieved their goals or are really close to it. I’m very much in the beginning of it all, so these are raw emotions and pure thoughts.

We say “thanks”  a bunch of times a day, when someone holds the door for you or when the cashier hands you your change. It’s a reflex, comes out automatically without a thought, we all know that type of generosity.

But the bigger one, the one that leaves us feeling a bit uncomfortable or even a bit embarrassed about whats being offered to you. For example, when a friend pays for the dinner bill or getting an overpriced gift. Do we feel unworthy of the action or maybe even indebted to the person…

I have a hard time accepting gifts and acts of service. It’s a bit crazy but I feel very uncomfortable. I don’t like people going out of their way for me, I feel like Im inconveniencing them.

One of my goals this year is to  be open to receiving.

Because Why Not?

Whether it’s love, attention or gifts I’m ready to welcome.

I don’t know where this issue of mine is from…

Pride maybe ? Fear of seeming needy ? Feeling unsafe and needing to control ? Feeling unworthy?

The act of giving is yang; it feels active.  The act of receiving is yin; it feels passive. Neither is better than the other.  They are two equal sides of infinity and both are integral to the larger whole.

When you are receiving, imagine that you are activating your yin energy and that this is keeping all of your yang energy in balance.

Being present in the moment includes accepting that you are enough. It means believing you deserve your blessings, and if that’s hard believe remember God gave it to you.

Think about the things you receive without knowing…

From people smiling at you in the street to your friends or colleagues giving you positive feedback on something.

You’ll realize you’re not so bad at it.

We’ll be more welcoming when we practice more thanks.

If you feel resistant to receiving it might also mean you are matching the givers energy. Let’s make room in our life for receiving.

But what do I know? I’m just a girl sharing her manière de vivre.