The Truth

Today I'll be writing about Love.

Yes, girl, even I'm surprised.

But what does Love mean to me?

Love to me is not something you can put in words. But, believe me, I've tried; I'm a writer and a poet (well, I think I am).

It's when you worry about whether or not they have eaten after a busy day at work. It's being selfishly mad at someone when they don't open up to you. It's when you fear pain but want to share their pain. It's wanting to give someone your all when you don't even know how to give it to yourself. It's hearing their words even when they aren't speaking and talking to them with no words needed. It's feeling forever, and knowing this world is temporary.

The conversations when your mind takes a break, and your heart does all the talking. It's wanting to be strong enough to be vulnerable to someone who isn't yourself.

It's the feeling of a home not attached to any specific location. They are the walking representation that everything is going to be okay. It's the feeling of being safe even when you aren't in danger.

Oh Love, go easy on me.

Love redefines pain. I don't think you've loved until you experience the moment you can't differentiate the two.

It'll humble you; it'll remind you that you are only human.

It's finding peace in something you can touch and see.

The older I get, the more I realize that I don't just want Love; I want healthy Love. I don't know what our good sis was saying about being crazy in love or dangerously in Love but… I want to be in Love with all the sense in the world.

Love is meant to bring out the best in you. Love is meant to amplify, not reduce. Love makes the lows high enough and the highs, memories to keep.

Trust is the most important thing for me in a relationship. I am trusting you to be faithful, but most importantly, I'm trusting you with myself. I'm trusting you with the most authentic version of myself and the rawest of my emotions. Saying "I love you" at times can seem easy because Love is not something that has a precise meaning. But saying I "trust you" that's where it gets real.

You can love someone and yet not trust them. Read that again.

I don't know about you, but I need to feel reassured to let my guard down, to let anyone in. I need to feel safe to let you see the real me.

I'm at the point of my life where a simple "I got you" goes a long way.

I'll let you see my fall because I know I'm not really falling with you.

Him not letting me go to sleep angry tells me that maintaining my peace will is important to him.

It's the Bridgeton type of Love where you don't need fresh air because being with you is all I need. It's waking up and knowing someone wants to know how my night went. It's venting to someone who cares, talking to someone who listens to you with every fiber of his being. Not because what you are saying is interesting but because it's important to you.

Leyla is everything ok?

I blame the fairytales.

I'm no Cinderella but It's losing something and hoping it will find its way back to you.

I'm no sleeping beauty but It's waking up and looking forward to another day of being loved

I'm no Belle but thank you for reminding me of the beauty in this crazy world.

And even if its just temporary I will forever be grateful for experiencing the "Happily" in Happily Ever After.

It's when nothing makes sense because, tell me, how can 1+1 equal 1.

But what do I know?

I'm the girl who swears she doesn't need nobody.

I probably just heard all of this from somewhere…